Yes it has been a few days. I was sick though so forgive me. It's wasn't a knocking on death's door kinda sick it was the allergies/cold/borderline crossing flu symptoms. Basically it was enough to making me feel like my head was going to pop from the pressure and the constant need to want to rip my throat out.
If it helps... I constantly thought of new things to write about on here as far as subject matters go but then as I sit here today...they elude me or disinterest me at the moment. Another side note is I am a horrible speller unbeknown to you. So far I have had to correct about 10 words. wow-za. 0_o
Once again after reading my previous blogs I feel the need to input that truly, I am not depressed. I'm not doing this out of a self denial or anything deep and brooding like that. It's just truly... I have thoughts I don't voice through and instead of bottling them up as I always do .. (character flaw) I try to bury them down in my minds trash bin but they always rear their ugliness until unleashed. SO speaking of that ugliness ...the first few blogs were basically my throwing up (ew... gross I know) those buried emotions.
Lately in all honestly I have been counting my endless blessings. I truly do have a wonderful husband who; yes I'll be the first to admit , frustrates me to no end sometimes. He honestly puts up with a lot of ...for lack of better terms... buried emotions from me. He is a wonderful father to our daughter.
Our daughter. Before children you always hear people quoteing and rambling on about how much children change your life and make you feel like a deeper person. Before Miss. T I took their opinions with a grain of salt. Yes..."no duh" children change your life. But is wasn't until we started living our daily lives with her constant reminders that she's here, relying on us, needing us, loving us, laughing with us and is miniature versions of the two of us ;does it truly hit you. My life if different. My life is truly full of love and graciousness. Not only from the fact of having a beautiful healthy daughter. A healthy, fun loving and full of life husband. But just in the aspect that the Lord has truly provided for me in life, and continues to open up new doors and windows for me.
Love-
Zippywhip
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